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Monday, October 03, 2005
Ohhhhh my Lord Yesterday was incredible. Amazing. Unbelievable. Extraordinary. Fabulous. Mind-boggling. I can't even explain it. I had the greatest time ever. I don't think I can even describe it. I couldn't do it justice. I was so, so scared. I was terrified. For the past month, I have been dreading this tour, and all of the stress and scariness and inevitable disaster that would come along with it. I kept picturing myself on stage, falling over or losing my skirt or tripping on my heels or forgetting the steps, or getting so nervous that I threw up all over my costume. Or forgetting my costumes or dropping my shawl on stage, or having to take the place of someone who was injured in a dance that I didn't even know, and then screwing it up into oblivion. There were a million things that I could have done wrong, and the thought of all of them made me absolutely ill. Needless to say, none of those things happened. I don't think I can find the words to explain this and have it make any kind of sense. When it got to be about an hour before showtime, my nerves just sort of...dropped away. All of a sudden, they were just...gone. At this point, there was no backing out, and I knew that. I was going to have to go out there and dance like crazy and there was nothing I could do about it. I don't think, deep down, that I ever really wanted to do anything about it. But the scariness made me feel like running away for awhile there. I felt calm (ish) and ready. I was excited. I wanted to burst onto the stage and dance my heart out. And I think I did. It felt good. The stage is somwhere I think I will always want to be. Adrenaline coursing through your body at warp speed. A delirious happiness clouding all of your fears. Nothing exsists in the entire world for those few short minutes except for you, your company and the show. Everything just melts away and all there is is dance. In those minutes, not a single thing could make me happier. The best thing now is knowing that it still isn't over. I get to do this 8 more times, and then some. Bring on the tour, baby. I'm ready. Hailey spazzed at 12:33:00 p.m. ***
Comments:
omg hailey I'm so happy everything went well for you!! I told you that you were going to be amazing no matter what, and that you had NOTHING to worry about!! I'm so happy you've been able to do this!!
I hope you have a good week!
HAILEY!! That is SO sad that you're not able to come this weekend!! :( I feel like crying now. *sniffle* We NEED to make plans
I feel like I haven't talked to you for ages either!! We have some serious catching up to do! Miss you!! If I don't talk to you, HAVE FUN IN SPOKANE!
When I first heard that the volleyball tournament was in Leduc, I was so thrilled! And then my parent's were like, "It's this Saturday." And then I was sad. We HAVE to get together again soon. After this weekend, touring is over for a bit, so maybe in that time we can work something out. I sure hope so. I miss you so much!!
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