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Tuesday, February 03, 2004
On the Count of Oblivion, I'm Guilty Don't know why I'm writing again, because I really have nothing to say. I just finished studying for my science midterm. I wrote my math midterm yesterday, and it went..okay...I suppose. I don't know. It could have been a lot worse - there were about four questions where I completely blanked and didn't have a clue what I was doing. But other than that, It wasn't too awful. I got my language arts midterm back. I got 87% on it, and I realize that 87% is a very good mark and that I should be very happy with it, but I can't help being a bit disappointed. I think I have a weird-ish mentality when it comes to school. Despite how good my marks may be, I'm always wishing that they were better. I never just accept what they are and move one - I dwell on all of the things that went wrong and feel stupid for being wrong and it's a really messed up way to think, because nobody is ever always right and nobody is or ever will be perfect but it absolutely kills me that I'm not. And I know - I know - that I never will be perfect, but it's the one thing that I want more than anything else. I realize this all sounds really stupid, like I somehow think that I'm an exception from the rest of the human race, which I don't - I realize that I'm not any more or any less than anyone else, and I think that I'm pretty good at accepting the imperfections of other people, so why is it that I can't accept my own? Whoa. Apparently I had a lot more to say than I thought Hailey spazzed at 8:11:00 p.m. ***
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