Wednesday, September 03, 2003

Today was teriffying.

All day today I kept hearing about how I have to "work hard this year, and it will determine what you do in High School, which will determine whether or not you go to University." and other such speeches and in all seriousness, the whole thing scared me. I know I'll do well because I always have, but I kept looking back on my previous years of school and being absolutely baffled by the thought of myself doing my work and getting the answers right and acctually understanding things - I really find it hard to believe that I'm capable of that. Two of my closest friends are the two smartest people in my grade. They are truly brilliant, and something I will never understand is how I can be considered to be like them. How I can be considered to have the same intelligence as they do, especially because I don't. It feels like all this time a robot has been doing my schoolwork for me and really I'm about as smart as a cucumber. I don't belong on the honor roll. That can't be right.

Hailey spazzed at 4:27:00 p.m.

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