Wednesday, August 20, 2003

This past week I've been living for those 1 and a half hour classes. That time where there is nothing on my mind but dancing - where life as I know it comes to a complete halt and all I do is dance. The other 22.5 hours of my time is simply spent waiting.

Oh gosh, I sound so CORNY. I sound like this big blubbering fool.Hahaha, I guess my attempt to try to explain what dancing does to me is kind of pointless - I can't describe it. I've been making it sound all sunshine and flowers but it's not always like that. There are days when everything hurts, and days when as hard as I try I can't forget all of the things that are going on in my life. There are days when I feel as if it's hopeless and I'll never amount to anything as a dancer - sometimes it's discouraging and sometimes it's frustrating. But all it takes is a single moment where something goes right. That feeling that you get - right then - that makes it all okay. After that those less-amazing times are almost fun because I want so much to contradict them. I want to work harder and prove that despite all of the sore muscles and all of the moments where I feel like it's hopeless, I can still do it.


Wow - look at me, getting all sentimental and shit. Hahaha.

Today's class was great - it's all so new to me, and I like it so much. I feel like such a dork because this makes me so happy, but I can't help it.

After class, I was sitting at home when my doorbell rand and there was Kati - it was a bit of a surprise. She wanted to show me her sister's new car [it's really cool]. It was so nice to see her - we stood out there in the middle of the street in our sweats hugging and talking about dancing and all sorts of other things. I'm so excited for her to start classes with Yuna Volya - she's wanted this for so long - I'm so happy for her. I'm happy for everybody and everything these days. Heh.



Hailey spazzed at 10:33:00 p.m.

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