Friday, August 15, 2003

Today was busy, busy, busy. But before I get into that, lets go back to last night - After I wrote my last piteous entry, I spent awhile pacing the upstairs. Then I went back downstairs, where I attempted to forget everything by reading. All of a sudden, about five minutes into my reading, I put down my book and started crying. And crying. And crying. I don't get it - I cried over that? I'm not really a big crier, and I cried over that? It doesn't make sense. Something that insignificant made me practically hysterical. As I was laying there, freaking out, I kept thinking "what the hell is wrong with me?". I just didn't get it.

I'm thinking now that maybe that Library thing made me reach my boiling point - where I just couldn't handle it anymore and I had to let go somehow. There are a lot of other things that are bothering me, and I haven't done anything about it until last night when I let myself cry. I think I was crying over more than just the library.

Hailey spazzed at 12:30:00 a.m.

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