Monday, July 28, 2003

Ready to get all sentimental and crap? If not, just don't read this entry.

I was thinking today [as I was making my bed, which is a habit I have only recently adopted ] about my blog, and how it's really, really weird to have my thoughts posted on the web. But then I thought, "this is the first time in a long time that I have really gotten a lot of stuff out to other people." Not that anyone acctually reads this [besides the odd few, once in awhile. Acctually, I think only a few people even know I have a blog. Which is fine by me] , but still - I never talk to my friends about this kind of stuff. I can't just call them up and be like "Hey, I'm really scared and freaked out by everything that's going through my head. You mind just sitting and listening while I try to convince myself that I'm normal?" It just doesn't work that way with me. I can listen to other people do this, though - I get calls all the time from my friends after they've had a fight with their parents or when they're worried about something, and I don't mind listening because there isn't much I can do for my friends, but I can listen.

I don't know how long this blog will last, or how long it will take me to really get weirded out by this whole "talking about my feelings " thing, [ I hate the word feelings, by the way] but I'm kind of glad I decided to do this. Maybe it's time that I stop pretending. There's something liberating about that.

Hailey spazzed at 10:57:00 p.m.

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