Thursday, July 31, 2003

The only thing I wanted to do today was get the hell out of my body. I felt so trapped and overwhelmed with absolute hatred for everything that I am. It was unbelievable, and upsetting and scary and frustrating and weird and I didn't like it at all. It's been so long since I've felt that way. I can't believe I'm writing this. Seriously. This is going to be another one of those entries that I'm going to look back on tomorrow with absolute humiliation. I don't know why I don't just delete the damn thing right now. Honestly. Maybe it's because now that it's written it's something I'll want to remember. But I don't! I don't want to remember feeling like this...I don't like it at all.


Hailey spazzed at 11:45:00 p.m.

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